So it was fantastic to be able to go home last night but strange and difficult to be further away from Savannah. It was also pretty strange waking up through the night to express milk for my little daughter who was lying over a mile away in an incubator 😦  All contributing to the slightly surreal feelings (and my excuse for the lack of wittiness of my entry….)

I have quickly come to realise that the morning journey into the hospital is one of the worst parts of my day because even though the ICU has our numbers it isn’t until we get to see Savannah again with our own eye that I feel reassured again. But seeing her again in the morning is such a great feeling it makes it worthwhile.

Day three started with a chat with the consultant, luckily the conversation wasn’t as serious as the quiet room we were whisked into implied. We got the general update and the good news is they have removed her breathing tube and put her onto SiPAP which is assisted breathing with a (teenie tiny) mask. Otherwise everything else remains stable but the consultant made sure we were under no illusions this will be a roller coaster ride. So in essence great we’ve had some good days but be prepared for some bad ones too. Really not looking forward to that day coming.

He also kept asking if we had any questions and I felt a bit stupid for not having any… Well that’s not true but the main one I have “will she be okay” he can’t answer yet. Must prepare a few in advance of our next chat!!

We leant today that Savannah has been enjoying her first babychino already. She is being given caffeine to help with development but unsurprisingly it also contributes to her wriggling around… We keep being told she is very active. Must take after her dad,  oh wait…

We also heard Savannah for the first time today which was absolutely amazing and heatbreaking to hear because she was crying and we couldn’t do anything to soothe her (other than for her to hear our voices), but the best thing in the world at the same time hear her tiny ‘voice’.

Savannah also had a second brain scan today which, whilst there appears to be a little bleeding on the brain, hasn’t changed since the first scan and is at the lowest level. So we are all hoping it goes away of its own accord.  As expected her weight dropped to an even tinier 675g but her food intake will go up tonight so hopefully she’ll stabilise and start putting it back on again soon.

It is amazing how many hours we can spend transfixed by watching our little girl and before we know it, it’s time to go collect Gaujai from the dog sitter to get our family to its new full strength. I am sure Gaujai suspects something though as she was a little off at first and then gave me the best cuddle on the sofa which was awesome.

So definitely still in a bit of a trance today but everyday Savannah gets stronger is a good day, so here’s hoping the rollercoaster is like the ones I like to ride (really dull and pretty flat!).